Growing up has to be one of the scariest things I have ever done. I'm learning to let go of things, figure out the true meaning of everything and not just rely on my parents, or other people to make things work out for me. I'm in charge of whether or not things are going as they should in my life. I decide where to go, what to do, how I want to spend my days. I don't have someone telling me what to do every day, I have the option to fail.. which honestly is an honor in and of itself. Having the option to fail, means that success is true success. You don't truly succeed at something if you hadn't even the opportunity to fail at it in the first place. That's the thing about high school- I secretly enjoy the ease of having teachers tell me what they expect out of me, it sets a bar... A bar that they know I can reach, if I put even just the tiniest bit of effort. But that isn't the real world. The real world is big, there aren't expectations set out in front of you, with a step by step guide on how to get there; and if you fail, there isn't someone giving you second, third, forth chances until you decide to actually try. But you can do anything. There aren't people telling you to do this, or to do that. I mean, obviously there are jobs and things that tie people down, but none the less, you are in charge of your own life. I am so confused why there are so many grown ups that haven't figured that out. They are letting their jobs, their friends, their enemies, their cravings... all these random things, decide how they feel, what they want, and what they ultimately do. It's like they don't realize how much power they have over their lives! If you want to do something, do it. If you want to be happy, be happy. If you want to become friends with someone, go after them. If you want to experience new things, go outside the box. Don't just sit on the computer all day and be led by every which way that pulls you. Dream up dreams and chase them; and once you have a dream, don't just sit there! You are in charge of your life. If you aren't happy, change things up. Try something new, think happy thoughts. Life is so exciting and fun if you make it :)

Alright, so it's becoming much more real to me, just what I need out of life. Jesus, Love, peace, freedom, joy, happiness, protection... and all of these things come from God. It's been my life's cry, and it's becoming my anthem to have protection. To just feel safe in Jesus; physically, mentally, and emotionally. Jesus is so protective! He loves, guards and looks after all of his kids, and to have that peace of having everything is going to be okay... is what I've been craving. I feel like those things that I listed above all tie in together. They all intertwine and it wouldn't work if I even just took one out of that. Jesus is the rock. He truly is, and He stands firm on His word. Christianity and your relationship with God, really shouldn't be shaky. It needs to be the most sturdy thing in your life, and I know things happen, you get busy and maybe you don't always feel as close to God as you should be. But He IS there. He's closer than ever, and you need to get to the point where you realize He is always there, and regardless of how you feel, your relationship with Him is rock solid. It honestly breaks my heart to see Christians chasing power, and are all about having fun with God and they lose the responsibility and sacrifice part.... But it truly is so much more. He's a rock. I don't really know where I'm getting at, I guess I'm just tired of seeing so many Christians on fire for God, but after just a little bit of wind, diversity, getting tired of it, or whatever.... They just fall. So really go after the rock, and have a sturdy, steady foundation with God. Because God truly is a God of order(1 Corinthians 14:40). He likes things done right and well. He's not in any hurry. You have time to build your foundation with Him :) ♥

I cannot tell you how amazing our God is. He is soo good to me. He is so good to my family, He is so good to the world. His love is sweeter than honey. So sweet, unconditional does He love ♥ His mercies cover the land and He is Good. His kindness leads us to repentance. It's His beauty, it leaves the world in wonder of His great love.

Sorry, just had to get that little praise out there. God is legit SO good! It's so exciting to think of a God that is so wrapped up in love for His children, that He goes to the great lengths that He does. I mean, He sent His SON. His one and only Son. Just for you and me. Ha! I love it(: I am so thankful for my Daddy. He holds me up when I feel like falling. He believes in me when I'm unsure. He tells me He loves me when I'm upset with myself, and He lets me grow. That has to be one of the things I admire and respect... When I notice someone who understands 'phases' and lets people grow on their own terms and doesn't try to immediately fix them, but realizes they will grow out of something and maybe the lesson they will learn from that, is far greater than what they are actually doing. Or simply notices and finds beauty in time. Finds beauty in growing older, becoming wiser and can simply sit back and realize they don't have to get upset over something. This usually happens with adults towards younger kids, I'm not trying to say that I respect people who don't correct one another, there's just something I really admire about someone who notices someone's flaws, and instead of attacking them, realizes just like they did... they too will grow out of them and they don't have to loose their peace over it.

I'm not going to give this blog out to people that I know, who knows... maybe no one will ever read this blog, I just want to type out things that Jesus is showing me, and express my love towards Him. So if you're reading this I just pray for you right now. I pray that God fills you up with his spirit, that you become filled with his peace, and I pray his protection over you. Over your family and over your life. I pray that you will begin to see things through God's eyes and that in everything, you will pray. I pray you learn to see God for who he truly is, and I pray that you realize How good of a Father he is, and how much he genuinely loves you. YOU are so loved. By a Dad in Heaven who is enthralled by your beauty and you are the apple of his eye. He longs for the best for you. :) ♥